Surfacing

Time has gone by and I assumed my thoughts and heart moved on. I was angry, and it dwindled down until I could hardly believe it even happened. Why then, all of a sudden, all these thoughts and emotions are surfacing? I understand, I was young and stupid, and I blame nobody but my foolish self. I learned. Why then does it keep sneaking into my thoughts, why does it keep showing up in my dreams? If only friendship was there.